TriggerSave me from this undying tragedy.
With fear of hopes I remain fidgety.
Free from this mess, I vow to you.
That whatever it is, my heart's torn to two.
Safety pins to sew this torn heart.
It bleeds even more - sigh, what a start.
Misery comes crawling into this mind.
All I could wish for was to sit and die.
It's calling my name, it lingers inside.
What could I do? But to brush these troubles aside.
With raindrops dripping on this very pane.
I say, pull the trigger and let me suffer in pain.
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xoxo-
29 July 2008
10.26am
Creep
Harsh words, raging in angst.
Imagine my heart pierced by your fangs.
Lies of deceit, taken aback.
My folly of hopes, but boy did it seem broke.
I woke up in tears and turned to my right.
Just hoping you're there, but yea - you're nowhere in sight.
The door creeped open, I gasped in fear.
All I was asking for was you to be here.
Little suicide notes, with traces of blood.
A broken razor, I know it was hard.
My finger on the trigger, it says resist.
I wish I could, but darling - you insist.
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xoxo-
25 July 2008
9.11am
Minutes passed, like seconds you see.
My heart beats softer, hear me scream.
The agony and pain, the torture but pleasure.
I'm lost for words, pain - that's it.
My apathy cries out of my lungs.
Temptation to kill and set myself free.
The hatred within, the guilt I feel.
I bow down in shame, I took all the blame.
Paradoxic or sheer contradiction?
Confusion arises, thoughts start to wander.
My sense of directions, I've lost it all.
I've lost my sense of wrong and right.
Indeed I still lost in all these kind of fights.
Implated scares and plastic hearts.
I tore them up, like how you've done.
You'll never know the pain still haunts,unless you feel it, then I'm gone.
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xoxo-
24/July/08
10.01 am